Let's start by saying I am not alone very often. With a roommate and a boyfriend, my alone time is very cherished. Although I usually have so much to do, I always sit back and watch some Netflix. My current binge is Gilmore Girls, suggested by my best friend. I almost never binge-watch a series and finish it in one go, but with Gilmore Girls, all of that has changed. I want to be both Lorelai and Rory, and be their best friend. It's an emotional ride.
I certainly talk to myself – a lot – when I'm alone. I never have pants on. I get kind of sad sometimes. I don't eat. These are the weirdest things I can think of.
Talking to Myself –
When I say "I talk to myself", I mean I have straight up conversations with me, myself and I. I'll actually think of a story I want to tell Donovan or one of my friends, and tell the story to myself how I plan to tell them, even though I was there. Of course, once I do tell them the story, it comes out much different and less cool. I laugh at my jokes, ask myself questions and answer them. I like having company, and I am my best.
No Pants –
This one is self-explanatory. Let's get real, who actually like wearing clothes?
Sadness –
This one is very bothersome. If I'm alone for a certain amount of time, it's very likely I'll get incredibly upset. As I said earlier, I watch a lot of Netflix when I'm alone. I'm most motivated when I'm with Donovan, so no matter how much work I have, I don't do it when I'm alone, even though I have nothing else to do. Sitting in bed watching hours upon hours of Netflix can get pretty lonely, and I soon become unhappy. My stomach starts to hurt, my unsmiling face feels duller than usual and I cry very easily. It's incredibly frustrating, because on a good day, I love being alone! Whenever I'm keeping myself company, I have to remind myself to change the pace and turn off the TV, otherwise the rest of my day will be very sour.
Never Eating –
I absolutely suck at cooking and it intimidates me. When I'm alone, all my taste buds revert back to childhood and I live off of Oreos, cookie dough and Clif bars. Even when I have frozen meals, I have no desire for them! It's the most bizarre thing. I actually have cauliflower in my microwave that's been sitting there for fifteen minutes. Now that I've made it, the smell is making my nose crinkle up. I really love cauliflower, so this makes no sense to me. During the school year, I typically lose an abominable amount of weight because I only ever eat at Donovan's. It's an issue I'm trying to fix.
So, these are my weird things. I probably have many more that I'm not thinking of right now, or even things I don't realize or find odd. Alone time is great and important for the human mind. Get on it.
